Day 8

I know you've all been waiting to hear if I sucked it up and got up this morning. Well...

*sigh*

Of COURSE I got up. Shame on you for doubting me. SHAME!

What actually happened was I woke up at 4:30AM with so much hate in my heart. I sat there debating with myself, even though I KNEW I'd get up eventually. I just couldn't let myself down like that. I would be really disappointed if I hadn't gotten up.

The run started out easy today. I was even going uphill and I thought, "I'm invincible! Look at me go!" I got to the scary woman in black/river section and I thought, "Psh, I'll cut the woman in black! I'm amazing!" Mile two came around and everything changed.

You know when you go on vacation and when you come back and check your email you have like 200 messages that are complete crap? Well my body is my inbox and all the annoying messages was some new ailment.

Body: "Hey, my legs are sore."

Me: "Just keep going."

Body: "Like...really sore."

Me: "Focus on your footing."

Body: "Oh, um, I have a side ache too. It's kind of a big deal."

Me: "I like this song. I'm going to ignore you and focus on this song."

Body: "Hey."

Me: "Shut..it.."

Body: "Hey."

Me: "Lalalalalalala."

Body: "I'm hungry."

So as this hunger is setting in, draining all my life force and all that great stuff, I see that hill again. Instead of feeling invincible, I feel my lungs protesting and I just know that I'm going to have to suck it up and crank it up the hill.

So I did.

And it sucked.

I just want you all to know that since I've been married I've gained almost 40 lbs. Right now, I'm at 194. I've lost 2 lbs since I started. Even though this whole journey isn't really about weight loss, I just want you to know that if I am capable of getting up before the sun and jogging 2 miles then we are all capable of hard things. We can beat old habits, for the sake of becoming a better person. We can conquer old demons and face long time enemies. It's not easy and it probably wont be for me ever again. But I feel alive, and in control. More than I have in a long time. The Lord wants us to better ourselves, not just in the gospel, but in every aspect.

So here's my challenge to you. Pick one thing and conquer it for one week. It doesn't have to be permanent, it's just for one week. It could be anything! The possibilities are endless. I know this is SOOO cheesy, but seriously. Stop saying you can't, and just do it.

P.S.

Poor Penny was so tired after our run. Isn't she cute?: